basically,

highlights would be

-YDC Camp
-Minhui's xmas countdown stayover

-Xmas dinner @ home
-Xmas party @ Celyn's
-New Year countdown @ Celyn's

-New year family gathering @ home (:

& i missed Takeena's & Jerry's party on d 19th & 24th. Sorry!

1o-16dec- YDC Camp was awesome. I learnt some little lessons in life from it & it was abit of an eye opener fer me too. (: I got t spend time with my YDC friends too & i also met some new friends there (: Staying in d camp site fer a week allowed some of us t really bond. Especially d Vietnamese who stayed with us fer one whole week. At d end of d camp, i really felt d bond between us & i couldn't bear t see them leave, i was a crybaby when we sent d Thais off at d airport on d 15th, sent d Vietnamese off on d 16th, & during midnight when i saw a very sweet sms from one of them, it just made me cry my heart out because i kno i'm gonna miss them. I'l think of them when i think of plastic surgeons, when i see spongebob, when i hear d word 'Queen', when i see d numbers '9' & '5', hear d word 'Prince' or 'Princess', so much more. Thanks fer being so awesome, & we'r gonna meet real soon. (: By d way, need t mention, i love my Team Okay! =D I am really lookin ferward t meeting them again. (: Nghia was so sweet, b'fer he left, he told me i'm a good group leader, Ngan told me that he told her he'l practise English in Vietnam so that he can speak more t me next time! How nice (: Pictures on facebook by d way (:

24dec - Minhui's xmas countdown stayover was another awesome thing (: Thanks fer organising! Was dinner/supper @ newton + countdown on d bus + mahjong + birthday present making + sleeping + laksa + happiness + unhappiness + abit of heart t heart talk. (:

25dec - xmas family gathering. My family members are non-christians, most of them are taoists. But i like it that every year on christmas' day, we'l make use of d opportunity t have a get together. My aunt would bring turkey, roast beef, mashed potatoes, ham, & lotsa food over. We'l enjoy an awesome christmas meal together. On usual days, there's always someone who isn't at home or have his/her own plans. So i like how we'd cancel our plans just t have a simple meal tgt on this special day (: Anws, apparently my family was very happy with d food that day & they decided that we should eat together again on new year's day. (: so my uncle volunteered t hunt fer some good food fer al of us. (: Sweet right, i kno (:

25dec - xmas gathering @ celyn's place. Thanks celyn fer being an awesome host! (: I missed d dinner cuz i was having dinner at home. Thanks Jesse fer picking me up from JE. I missed Jianhai, Chenghong, Allan & Yunzhi! Saw them leaving when i was on d way there. I missed Kr too! Made some new friends there, d AFA people, Ghani & Aaren. (: So d gathering was about eating + chit chat in d kitchen + a few drunkards + watching part 1 of a horror movie which wasn't so horror, + heart t heart talk with celyn + bickering with derrick + breakfast inclusive of saboing soonkoon + leaving (& buying bubble tea :D) Nevertheless, this gathering was awesome. Made me kno them more & i only wanna be with them more & spend more time with this group of people (:

So, in between al these gatherings, you guys must be wondering what i'm doing right? I stayed home (: YES i mean staying home whole week from 17-23 dec hahha no joke. :D & somehow i like it this way. I donte kno. Mayb or mayb not because of me staying home, my r/s w mumster is much better now. I like her so much more when she doesn't nag at me. Somehow, i think she finally got d fact that i hate people nagging at me & naggings doesn't help at all. Thank God fer that (: so this is d reason why you guys cant get me outta my house randomly. I wanna stay at home (:

Another thing which got me rather pissed & gave some thoughts t.
Hahahhaa, as usual, i blogged three paragraphs & deleted them away.

No need t talk about it anymore. I just think that some people should really think b'fer speaking, & if you have nothing good t say, just donte say anything. As much as i was angry at that person, i'm even more thankful now because she made me realise how annoying & inconsiderate it'd be if i spoke w/o thinking. & how it might hurt d feelings of others. i'm thankful that i can get d message she put across minus d sarcastic tone, thank God (:

i kno i complained abit t everyone that day, but rest assured you wont me speaking bout this issue negatively anymore. It isn't constructive, & isn't worth my time, isn't worth others time listening t (: But heres t those whom i complained t that day : I'm okay, I'm not angry anymore. I kno she probably is a nice person & mayb she dinte mean it, or at least that's what i choose t believe. & I'm sorry if i went overboard with my words that day too if i did. & i gues what she said is true, i'm not that good as a GL. but it wont make me give up because i kno i'm gonna be better next year. i donte kno why she doesn't like me. made me reflect on myself abit. i gues i roughly kno why, so i gues i'm gonna change fer d better t what i agree with fer my own good. yeah of course it's not because of her luh. =.= nyeh heh! so yeah. i believe she's gonna like me sooner or later (:

I'm surprised i'm actually blogging away like this, my current & previous entry. It's something i usually never do. I guess staying at home & meeting only d people i love took away part of d insecurities. But i'm stil insecure but many things. like how i just typed another 2 long paragraphs below & deleted them away.

Shall just share a few happy incidences that happened recently too.
Firstly, a secondary school friend who had a bad impression confessed recently, saying that her impression of me had a 360 degree change, now she thinks i'm a really nice person after getting t kno me better (:
Secondly, ytd a friend i known fer about more than a year confessed too. He told me he used t think i'm young naive & childish, but he told me that now he knos d true me & he thinks i'm matured & d fun side & childish side is just a cover up. He told me he's sorry fer judging me b'fer. How sweet of them right? I donte think i'm a really nice & matured person. But it's what i'm working towards being too. & i'm thankful fer such sweet encouragements along d way (:

Anws, enough of these. Just wanna wish everyone a Merry Xmas, & a Happy 2o1o. i kno 2o1o's gonna be an awesome year somehow. I'm lookin ferward t it. I wana see my resolutions come true at d end of d year, & i really hope God would give me d strength t not give up halfway.

&&& i made xmas/new year cards. gonna give some of them out tmr (:
&&& i miss some of my friends i havent met fer ages especially ppl like masliana margaret grace lilin reina jiehui jiahui yiting melissa. yealah girlfriends lah okay! lol but... i donte have plans t meet them & i donte wanna meet them too fer d moment. :D but... we can webcam!

so much left unsaid.

sometimes, donte we just wish that people can hear what we do not say?

love you all! bai! xoxo. (: